What Purgatory Might Be Like

Last night, a group of us that meets at our church, was discussing Purgatory. The Catholic Church teaches that this is a state of being purified after death for those who are already saved, before entering heaven. This got me thinking about what it might be like. People always talk about the pain and suffering that people experience in Purgatory. If they experience pain, I think it is partly due to the fact that they are closer to God than they were here on earth. Our God is an all consuming fire (Hebrews 12:29). He purifies us with the fire of His love that burns away the impurities in our heart.

Here on earth we can have the tendency to try and "hide" from God like Adam did in the garden. When impurities (fear, sinful thoughts and tendencies, wounds, shame, unforgiveness, and disturbing memories) come to the forefront of our mind and heart, we often have the natural inclination to stuff it down and escape. We drown out those thoughts and feelings by using our phones, turning on the television, sitting at the computer, busyness, etc.

I believe the pain of Purgatory is that we no longer have those idols to escape to. We are closer to God, His eyes are on us, our hearts are laid bare, we have nowhere to run, and we now must receive His purifying love! The amount of time it takes for this to happen in the afterlife depends on how much we surrendered to this process and His love here on earth. He desires to perfect us in His love and transform us into his image!

One way I view Purgatory is based on an experience I had several years ago. I saw an image of the Lord's eyes. They were periwinkle blue and see through like glass. They were beautiful beyond description and when He looked at me they seemed to pierce right through me and my heart was laid bare. I asked Him how to back up my experience with scripture because the only scripture I knew of that described his eyes was from Revelation 1:14 - "His eyes were like blazing fire." He lovingly asked, "Can't you just take things at face value?" but then he answered my question and asked, "What is the hottest part of the flame?" I then realized that the hottest part of the flame is the bottom of the flame which is periwinkle blue.

The next several weeks proved rather challenging and was bittersweet as memories from my past started coming to the surface and the Lord came into those memories with His purifying work. In much the same way as gold is purified in the fire, the dross in my heart came to the surface and needed to be skimmed off. This is not necessarily a fun process but necessary for us to become more like Jesus and become brighter so His glory can shine through us.

I hope that I can get to the point where I am able to fully surrender to this process here on earth and some day people will be able to look in my eyes and see the love of Christ looking back at them!