On His Reflection

“For now we see only a reflection as in a mirror; then we shall see face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known,” (1 Cor 13:12).

I think that much of my Christianity has to do with knowing who I am.  Part of the remarkable change in Christ requires self awareness to properly ascertain what God has changed within me.  There is a striking difference between where my self perceived identity lies and where He walks in to change my heart in accordance with His promise to make me whole.  The transformation is subtle in some cases, because it is change within myself that I have longed for but was unable to attain on my own (i.e. inner peace).  

Other changes are remarkably obvious, because there isn’t any way I could have fathomed the transformation in my own capacity (i.e. having a love for His church and people.)  The familiarity with my self identity has led me to understand that there are certain bona fide traits within me that cannot be removed - like my resilience and determination. God’s presence enhances these characteristics in a reflection of who He is for my benefit and purpose within the body of Christ.  It is comforting to know that my individuality is not being removed in Christ, but rather made whole in His care. Only in Christ’s reflection will I ever know who I truly am.

I strive for a perfection that is only available in Him, and for Him. I am in need of His light to reflect on my worldliness.  And to be in His light I must be in His word. I can only be changed in His image if I'm willing to look for the inconsistencies in my life compared to who He is. His reflection drives me to be a better person and to hope for a better tomorrow. It is in this reflection that I grow and thrive in. Only in His image can there be substantive permanent change. I don't pretend to be "Christ-like" - I'm far from it. But I do believe my thoughts and behavior change when I pray or think of Him. His image rules my life. It's why I choose to wear His cross around my neck. To be reminded that I am a Catholic-in-progress. Never without sin, but always striving to be more aware of who I am in Him.