Do you trust God?

     This question has been being posed to me all week. The different words that appear in my book, everyday, make me think of how much my trust in God has been easier to say than do. It's true. I trust our Lord when things go smoothly, but the moment they start getting rocky, my trust fades and turns into fear. My compliant will has turned inward, and goes south as I start feeling like I'm alone. Having to figure it all out by myself. God immediately, since praying for surrender and trust in Him and His Will, comes to my rescue. The Peace that He allows my whole being to feel, assures me that He is listening. 

     Like I've said before, I've always considered myself a "fixer". But as the years trudge on, I realize who the "real fixer" is. It is not me. So many things are just completely out of my hands and must be in the hands of God alone. I've learned that only constant prayer for release of myself being the fixer, that things start happening for the good. When doubt creeps in, I think of it as my "survival mode" and it is time for me to act. Not so. God doesn't work that way. There must first be a resignation to His Will and then He can use us. He truly is the "Potter" molding each of us into the person we were meant and created to be. But we must let him mold us. Otherwise, the clay pot cracks and must be started over again. I can't count how many times my casting has cracked, but He does not throw me away. He just starts all over again. With knowledge gained, my mold gets closer and closer to a finer piece of construction within His Holy hands. Never getting discouraged with me, He starts over and tries to make me sturdy enough to be put into the kiln for His perfect design to set. It is only me that resists the fire of the kiln. Oh! That my trust of surrender be great and let this great creator mold me. 

     Help me, oh God! I want to trust You always. To mold me, shape me, into the beautiful piece of china that it once was when I came into this world. I do trust you Lord. Strengthen my trust.