St. Thomas the Apostle: A Journey of Faith, Questions, and Encounter
“The fool has said in his heart, ‘There is no God.’” (Psalm 14:1)
I have heard this thought whispered in different languages, across cities and continents, and I have felt its weight myself. In Lagos, Nigeria, I walked through neighborhoods where children played barefoot in dusty streets, where families carried grief from conflicts they did not cause. I met a young man who had lost his home to flooding and watched his eyes search the sky as if asking, “Where is God in this?” In that moment, I understood the psalm in a way I never had before. Denying God is often not arrogance. It is exhaustion, despair, a heart too heavy to hope.
In Toronto, I have sat in coffee shops and university halls with students who appear surrounded by comfort but carry invisible loneliness. They ask, “Why does God let us feel empty when everything seems fine?” I see it in their quiet faces, in the small gestures that betray a longing for something more than the routines of life. Even in places of plenty, hearts can echo Psalm 14:1.
In the United Arab Emirates, the city skyline is dazzling. Glass towers reflect the sun, cars hum along wide roads, and wealth moves in constant motion. Yet I met a worker far from home who labored twelve hours a day and spoke softly of missing family, of missing a home that no longer exists, and of feeling unseen by the God he once believed in. The psalmist’s fool is not far from these hearts. Saying there is no God can be a shield against pain. It is a way of surviving a world that often seems indifferent.
I carry these experiences with me because they have shaped my own faith. I have asked myself the same question in quiet moments. In a snowstorm in Canada, when I was far from Nigeria and from the life I knew, I wondered if God was listening. In a crowded Lagos street during a storm, I worried if God could see the suffering pressing against every side of the city. In the UAE, I wondered if the God I knew could find a place among towers of glass and concrete. And yet, I also saw the presence of God in small, ordinary ways.
In Nigeria, I watched a group of neighbors share a single pot of stew with strangers who had no food. In Canada, someone stayed with a friend all night when she could not stop crying. In the UAE, a man offered water and a kind word to a worker who had nothing. These are not grand miracles. They are small acts of love, but they are enough to whisper that God is here. God has not abandoned us even when our hearts cannot see.
The psalm reminds me that doubt is human. It reminds me that denial can come from pain, from distance, or from fear. But it also challenges me to act. To walk with those whose hearts are heavy, to listen, to offer presence, to live in a way that shows care without waiting for gratitude. The fool says there is no God, but God’s work often happens quietly through the hands and hearts of people who do not claim to be holy.
Across Nigeria, Canada, and the UAE, I have learned that faith is less about certainty and more about presence. It is about noticing the small moments where life insists on hope. It is about standing with people who feel unseen and saying, without words, that their pain matters and that they are not alone. In these moments, God becomes visible—not as an abstract idea, but as love in motion, in real bodies, real streets, and real lives.
The psalm does not condemn the doubting heart. It calls us to witness. It calls us to participate in God’s presence, to act when the world feels godless. I have seen God in children laughing despite hunger, in neighbors helping strangers, in friends who do not give up when everything seems lost. Even when the heart whispers doubt, these acts affirm that God is not absent. To live with this awareness is to embrace both the pain and the possibility. The fool may say there is no God, but I have seen God in my life across continents, in ordinary people who reflect divine care in quiet, persistent ways. To walk with them is to glimpse the face of God in our shared humanity.